Re-Hashing the Same-Old

Here I am at home doing the same things I do whenever I come home. Spend hours hanging around and doing absolutely nothing and boy is it nice. The thing is though, I really want to be working and out of the house a bit more. I have sent in a bunch of applications and now the waiting game begins...ah well. It isn't like I have anything better to be doing except watching daytime TV or cop shows all day.

I started rehearsals for Grease yesterday and I am uber-excited, you have NO idea. I seriously love to perform. Yes, I know, people that know my in real life may be surprised to hear that since I tend to come off as shy. It's true though, put me on stage and I am a happy camper(although camping has very little to do with acting). I do get stage-fright, but I have been learning to deal with it, and usually it is only on the day before I open and then the last ten minutes before I go on stage for any given performance.

My philosophy with acting is that I am given the opportunity to be someone else on stage and entertain people. If I mess up only a hand full of people will know and as long as I am prepared I generally don't mess up.

I still haven't gotten over my audition issues...I don't know that I will ever completely got over that. I'm pretty much OK with that though. I figure the first time I am cool and calm for an audition I know that I have lost the drive and the passion for theater or music. I don't really see that ever happening. In fact if it ever does I will know that there is something seriously wrong with me.

So it still hasn't quite sunk in that I will be here for a few months. I keep thinking that I will be heading back to school any day now and then reminding myself that I am stuck in St. Helens for the long haul. Although there are perks to being here

1. Spending time with my sister!!!!! I have already mentioned how much I missed her.
2. Grease! Enough said.
3. Clayton and random adventures...fun fun! Like sushi or random walks and things of that nature
4. Koko, my little squishy face.
5. A double bed...oh yea!
6. Car, although I probably shouldn't drive that much until I get back on the insurance...heehee

I just realized that I wrote just about the longest post ever... that I didn't copy and paste from something else. Whatever...

More Political?

So Sunday I was able to go to the HUMONGOUS Obama rally in the Waterfront Park in Portland. We had gone in to church and were asked by the youth group leaders if we wanted to tag along. Which we did. So we spent about two and a half hours under the boiling sun with a huge number of other people. Our group was fairly small, my sister and brother, Peter and Melanie(the youth group leaders), Michael, and a state delagate from Idaho who was in town for our denominational conference meeting. He spent the whole time telling my sister and I how lucky we were to be around during this amazing time.

We know... But he was impressed by my knowledge of the candidates and that I had gone to the Clinton rally the day before. I thought he was kind of funny since he thought I would be an apathetic teenager, but was actually informed about the state of affairs in this country. Whatever!

So I though I was going to post pictures from both rallies but the Internet is being dumb so I will get to it again later

Peace!

Goodbyes and Handshakes

So I got in last night but I haven't set my computer back up yet so I will post pictures of today's adventures a bit later. Leaving school was a whole lot harder than I thought it would be. I had realized that I made good friends, but I hadn't realized just how attached I had gotten. With every wave and hug goodbye things got that much harder for me, I don't mean that I am all emo-depressed-like about it, I just noticed that it was hard.

Enough being emo for one day...

Today I had the opportunity to see Former President Bill Clinton speak. He came to Scappoose this afternoon and a friend got a call about an hour before we showed up telling him to come and that it was free. When we arrived there weren't that many people there which surprised me but that also meant we got to be very close to the action. In fact after his speech both of us got to shake his hand. Even during the speech we were probably about 15 feet away from him.

I haven't been to an event such as this before and it was really interesting to behold. The police presence wasn't as large as I expected but I was impressed by the fortitude of the Secret Service guys who wore full suits the entire time in the over eighty-five degree weather. Clinton took off his Suit coat partway through the event, barely int,o actually.

I will give y'all more dirt on the speech and other things later when I post the photos.

Ciao!

A Day of Celebration

Today I am full of smiles and cheers for the state of California. Normally I spend time eye rolling and despairing over the decisions made by a fairly conservative government and a star Governator. But today I applaud and wish to hug the Supreme Court of California. They have decreed that denying gay marriage is unconstitutional. Oh yes!

I guess it may not surprise some that California would take this step before other states; California is the home of San Fransisco after all. But, I worried, as usual. Today at least for now I can hoot and holler all I want. I don't doubt that even now there are groups planning if not already taking action against this ruling.

Hooray!

In other news, today is my last full day here at Pacific. I will be moving out tomorrow and heading home. Finally. Don't get me wrong, I love it here. It is just that I am very attached to my family and my dog. Plus I need to recharge after a stressful time here. So goodbye Pacific (for now) and hello home!

Hope you all can enjoy the weather where you are, I certainly am!

Sisters

Today I attended the first reading of a classmate's play entitled Promises. It was basically about the relationship between sisters in a broken home. To me I was so caught up in the unfolding drama that I forgot that it was just a reading. Of course, there were a few line flubs and awkward moments, but...it was amazing. Yay Maddie!!!



I was blown away by the fact that she so accurately showed us the messed up tangled around hate and love relationship many sisters have...including my sister and myself. Now in the play one of the sisters is abused and my sister and I never went through anything precisely like that but when our parents were sick or if there was ever a need for support for either of us, there was no doubt that we would be there for each other even if only moments before we had been at each others throats. Including the time I got in a fight at the schoolbus stop in fourth grade to protect her.



During the reading there were a number of moments where I was literally brought to tears and afterwards I had to stop and think about it. But the ending scene with parallel images of the older sister holding the younger ones body frightens me, in fact, I just sent a text message to my baby sister checking to see if she is alright and to say that I love her. The other moment that just made me cry was the moment when the younger sister walked out of the older sisters room after the older one refused to come home and help. It made me think if I thought I could ever do anything like that to my sister. Obviously I would hope not, but who really knows. I just would hate to ever see my sister in that much pain and even think about not helping her.



There were some uncomfortable parallels in the play concerning the sisters there and my sister and myself. The younger sister in the play was promiscuous and the older hadn't even been kissed when she went off to college. I in no way am calling my sister promiscuous, period. But she has had boyfriends...ok, shutting up about that before she kills me. I, on the other hand, am pretty much like the older sister in the play. I have never had a boyfriend and hadn't been kissed when I went away to college this year. It is just kinda funny that those circumstances were mirrored in the play. In talking with Maddie after the reading that relationship is also mirrored with her and her younger sister.



I would like to send out to the world that if any theater companies are looking for new work to showcase this play is amazing, even at the first reading. So please think about using Promises by Madalyn Clemence.



Seeing the play and thinking these thought was kind of strange today because honestly my sister is the person I miss the most back at home and I cannot wait to see her(maybe only 2 days or at the most 8 days!!!). In fact we both were saying that we need to have some sister time when I get home and seeing this play just emphasized that for me.



I love you Ookie!!

Imogen Heap - "Just For Now"

I love this song and I thought I would share it with you. Especially since it shows how it is mixed live.

Enjoy!