So, maybe I'm a bit lonely

(This is a poem by the way)

I have been alone for a long time
solitude and no peace
rain and wind
silence around
but it left me with the thoughts in my head
it left me with doubts
left me with questions
then I was alone with me

creation beckoned with hands outstretched
acknowledging my fear
but leaving me without a choice
she waited
until i was vulnerable
she waited until i cared what other people thought
she forced my hand as words exploded in my heart and in my mind
they flowed as rapidly as water over glass
word and paper and thought and heart and... soul
they were all united in this one endeavor
as they had never been before

i thanked her
as she dissolved away
leaving me alone with those doubts on paper
those doubts no longer clogged my brain
and i could breathe again
in the silence that surrounded me
as night came to a close and dawn drew ever closer

that was when i finally slept
finally...
peace

Beauty and the Beast Pictures

Beach Photos

These Photos were taken on our day trip to Astoria with Natalie and Elias to the Maritime museum and the beach around the wreckage of the Peter Iredale.

More to Come

I will be posting some pictures and anecdotes about Beauty and the Beast and our trip to the beach with my niece and nephew probably tomorrow, just a heads up.

Things have been crazy, especially in my head the last few days. I haven't been sleeping well and when I do sleep I have been having disturbing dreams that I only half way remember. Then the last two mornings I was awakened around 6 or 6:30 by my father leaving for work. Since the weather has been so nice my window is open and the noise of the car starting woke me up.

I am hoping that tonight is the night, the first night in about 2 weeks that I will have a full night's sleep without interruption or strange dreams.

Beauty and The Beast

Once upon a time, there was a girl who was very busy acting in the musical Disney's Beauty and The Beast. She was so busy she started talking in the third person and even typing in the third person. She has been spending so much time in the theater she hardly remembers what her house looks like except for at night or in her bedroom. She even stayed out extra long one night last week to go to the Midnight premier of Harry Potter and The Order of the Phoenix. She didn't get home that night until after 3AM. Yes, Kim knows that this is much out of her normal thing. However she likes to mix things up, especially where Harry Potter is concerned.

Yes Kim is a very busy person. She is also taking a class online this summer about Dreamweaver. She is having much fun playing around with HTML and Dreamweaver CS3. She is hoping that she can keep some of her wide eyed wonder and the amazingness that is the Internet, and that she doesn't become a dork, like a few people she knows.

Kim would also like to that some of her friends for putting up with Kim's crazyness due to her horrendous schedule and just her general lack of sanity!

Kim sends hugs and kisses to those she loves and a nice wave to those she doesn't

Poetry

I don't believe that I have ever posted my poetry and thanks to my love I have had inspiration to write a couple new poems, I though I would share them here.


#1

Night falls over the dry land and brings with it a cooling breeze
although this gentle breeze brings relief
it cannot stem the tide of this overwhelming drought
the heart in my chest yearns for that first drop of rain
at every breeze, every cloud that passes it leaps with hope
praying that the rain comes soon

The breeze has lulled my to my dream and i imagine the days when i never thirsted
in those days the lush green grass covered the rolling hills and joy followed all my steps
these days are not so happy

these days are for the wanderers
for those that mourn and cry
those who search
aimlessly
hoping that someone will save them

while i sit in the dark, waiting for the moon
and the rain



#2

Cozy and warm
curled and comfy
comforted by your arms
here i lie, awake yet dreaming
of the day when my true love is finally here
in my arms
in his arms

peace
so real,
i grasp at the sight of us together as sleep changes to wakefulness
but it is gone
all i see and feel is my empty bed, empty room

empty arms

so far from you, my love
i sleep,

and dream...


I hope you like them, and any feedback would be appreciated.