From beach

This is where I would like to be right now, well if the weather wasn't full of cold and wet. I am so tired of being cold, what I wouldn't give to be completely warm. Even at night with my two comforters and flannel sheets I am not warm enough. I have never been cold like this before, normally I can handle being a bit chilly no problem, but this winter I am craving warmth like no other. May be its because of all the weight I have lost, just so you know the weight is down about 20 pounds since I started. I cannot wait to be thinner still, I'm doing my best although it is taking time to unlearn a lifetime of bad eating and exercising habits.

I have found out that I like to exercise although I still have to make myself do it, one way that I have started to make myself is the mile and a half walk to the bus four days a week. I don't have a choice not to go to school so I have to walk. It makes me feel alive to walk like that even though on those rainy cold wintry days it is not fun to be soaked or have cars splash you with even more water than is already raining down on you. After that it is even less fun to sit on the bus for about an hour followed by about another forty five minutes on the MAX while soaking wet, then sit in class and wait to go home still drying and smelling faintly like a wet dog, not to mention having your jeans weigh about 20 extra pounds from the water. Not that I'm complaining, too much at least, it was my own damn fault and I have no one to blame but myself.