Friday, January 12, 2007

Dating And The Rest: part 2

Here is a continuation of the story I began yesterday.

The one guy friend and I had sort of left her fold, although we were still friends. We weren't as close as we had been, but we couldn't really escape her because she was intensely involved in the theater department with us. We were all involved in a musical production in which she had one lead and I had a large comic supporting role. The guys were also involved in this production as well.


It was during the beginning of this production that I found out the horrible news. My mom had breast cancer, and it was serious. I was a sophomore in high school by this point. It was a really rough time because my family needed my support, and because I have a younger sister I had to remain strong at home. I had been hoping to have the support of all my friends at school, so I continued in the production at my mother's urging.

I went to tell my friend, she was alone at lunchtime for once, and I told her the news. She looked at me for a while and said, oh, I'm sorry. Then she went on to complain that she couldn't date the other friend of ours because she believed it was wrong but she still had feelings for him. I was shocked. I had been there for her through everything, I helped her study, I held her while she cried and when I needed her to return the favor she couldn't or wouldn't.

I think I said something lame and left as quickly as I could and went to sit with one of the guys. He was the perfect picture of kindness, he asked of he could do anything and said if I did to just call him anytime no matter what. That is what I needed. He helped me stay afloat during this very busy time of school then intense rehearsals, where I had to deal with my former friends attention seeking behavior and her pitying attitude to me. Not just that , but when I went home, everything was sad and somber and intense as my mom went through her double mastectomy, and then healed from that physically, mentally, and spiritually.

He was my rock to sanity.

After that experience with someone I thought was my best friend I decided that I would stay away from her and other people a bit more and that shell became even stronger. People were always coming to me for advise on everything but I never ever understood how they could ask me, the person who had lost her best friend and seemingly her only chance at a boyfriend.

I guess I understand people, except the crazy ones.

This experience leads me to today, and my wonderful crazy relationship with Sanjib. For those who may not know about it, we met over the internet through my little sister. He lives in Nepal and I live in the US. We haven't met in person yet, but hope to this summer. One of my friends think I got into this relationship because it is safe. But it isn't exactly safe, he is so far away and I have given my heart to him and completely trust him.

1 comment:

sanjib said...

Miss Kimberly i am a regular reader of your blog and i like the way u write in your blog.
YOu should be thankful to god that at that rough time at least you had someone who stand for your help......he is a noble person..........hatsoff for him. Just forget abt that girl.........i think she is a opportunist who look for the oppoutunity whoever have a better time just stick with them. I also had a bad times infact i am sure that i had alot then yours and no. of times as well.........but i believe that after every dark phase there will be a brighter phase and we all know that day comes after night. Just you should have a patience to wait.
About your relation with that guy named Sanjib if u have that much faith on him then he wont let your faith down...........