Will This Ever End?

So here I am, in the computer lab at school, waiting for my dad to pick me up. I am bored from doing my homework so this is my break. Things are crazy still but I still am not sure if I ca make it through this term without borrowing some money. I have about 500 dollars to pay to PCC and I start my new job hopefully on Saturday night, but in order for me to pay for my tuition I will have to work, almost 70 hours although I will be getting some money from my church for working in the nursery. But still, I don't understand why people have to pay so much money to make money. I mean if you don't have a college education, then you wont succeed easily in your career.

It makes me crazy.

The other thing making me crazy is me. Lately I have been kind of sad, not really sure why. Part of it I think is that it will cast an extraordinary amount of money for me to travel to Nepal, and I don't really want to spend money on anything else until I go there. I just cannot figure this out. Every time I think about how far away he is, I just feel like crying. I almost just want to give up hope, but I know I cannot, I must keep hoping since this all rests on my shoulders.

Next craziness, is me looking at universities. A few of my wonderful, darling, friends have plans for me, like, University of Oregon, Oregon State University, Southern Oregon, Central Washington. The thing is I don't know that I want to go to a University so close to home, even though Southern Oregon is at least four hours away. I have recently been thinking about moving to Canada for a while. I might go to University of British Columbia in Vancouver. I really like that city and Canada itself. I have a few family members there although we aren't really close to them since they are kind of distant relatives. Although I like them. The other thing about that is that Canada is a lot easier on people who are immigrating that would make it easier for my future I think. And, really Canada is not all that far from home and the climate isn't that different than I am used to.