Today I am starting to feel the burn of that wick getting closer to me from either side. This last sentence is an awkward attempt at utilizing the metaphor of burning the candle at both ends. whew that hurt my head. I have been studying like crazy for my final finals Monday and Tuesday next week.
AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAh!
I really have nothing more to say but I'm trying to get into the habit of blogging a bit more frequently. So I will try to ramble for a bit more. Tomorrow night is our concert at Mt Tabor Presbyterian church and I'm excited except I'm feeling a bit like I might be getting sick. So, I'm hoping that the massive amounts of vitamin C that I have been eating today will help me stave off sickness for another four days.
Today I am missing Sanjib normally every night we talk for as much time as possible about 2 hours. Unless we are busy which lately we have been. But still we talk every night or leave emails for the other. Last night I had an email but we missed each other, and today nothing, so I hope everything is fine. But its a routine, and more than that, it is a way for us to communicate, the only way that we really have.
So thats the end of my ramblings............hope you werent bored.

Just a Day in the Life

Today I presented my final project for my Psychology class. It was really an interesting day. The project was to create an artistic representation of self and to be able to explain it using the themes and vocabulary we learned during the term. I thought it was alot of fun. I decoupaged two nesting boxes with magazine pictures and words that describe who I am. I will probably post a few pics since I am very proud of my project.
I think my prof really dug it too. She was I think impressed with the amount of thought I put into it and all the explanations I had for the meanings of things. Like that the outer of the boxes represents the things that I show to the world. The inner box represents what I keep to myself. Both boxes have a few blank spots to show that I am still growing changing and that my life is a journey. Even another professor who came in really liked it and dragged my prof over to see it.
The class presented in the ASPCC Underground (the student lounge), where anyone who wanted could come in and see our presentations. One lady did a dance interpretation thing, a couple guys wrote songs, one girl sang and played a ukelele (she was crying the whole time). Many people did collages or other things like that, one girl even did hers on her snowboard.

Thats about all I have to say for today. Except that I will miss Sanjib when he is in Malaysia. Although I do hope that he has a good time.

FINALS!! AAAAAAAAAAH!

So finals are going to drag on for two weeks. I am finished with my psychology class on Wednesday after I turn in my project and paper. My final for my communication class is on Monday, when I will be turning in my final paper and taking the exam. I know that one will be easy. My written spanish final will be tomorrow and the oral exam will be on Thursday I think.

Enough

Today I was dressed a bit nicer than normal today and everyone was commenting on it. I thought it was strange, I am still the same me. I was just wrapped a bit better. I was dressed as I would normally be if I didnt work in a cold dirty warehouse. Since I didnt have to work I could dress nicely. Just a skirt and a sweater, nothing that special. Just strange that practically everyone asked me why I was dressed up. Thats all.

So long and thanks for all the fish

Today marks the end of my series of videos, I hope you enjoyed them. I certainly did. These videos give you some idea of what happens in my head. OK, whatever.

On to bigger and better things

Last night I had this wonderful dream and it put me in mind of some of my goal-dreams that I had forgotten about. The dream went somewhat like this:

I was dressed up beautifully and someone behind me (stage-manager, I think) told me it was time to go on. It was at that point I heard a huge noise, there were sooooo many people cheering I could barely think. So I walked out on stage, and I saw the lights and the crowd, it was great. I saw a small band on stage as well, and we got started. As I watched, I performed for the longest time. I sang jazz songs and rock songs, ballads and dance tunes. Everything! and I rocked. It was the end of the set and I started to introduce the next song, which was a love song, and I was about to dedicate it to my wonderful Sanjib, when I heard a sound next to me. It was Sanjib, right there on the side of the stage. So I continued my intro and launched into the song. He was standing there smiling, and I was crying happy tears to have him so near. When I was finished I took a few bows and left the stage and entered my love's arms.

So not only was this a sweet dream about my darling, it was a dream about my music. My music got me through so many troubles, through school, and just life in general. I have always been singing, probably from in-utero as well as before I could form words. Singing is something I have been known for my entire life. It has always been my dream to be a professional singer, but it is always something I have been afraid to do. I always worry what people think, especially about my singing, since it is close to my heart and soul. What I sing, I feel. Even if I wouldnt normally feel and think things in the music, but it becomes true for me as soon as I sing it.

So, dreams may be prophetic, or maybe not, but I hope so.

Barnes and Barnes-Fish Heads

Ok so this video is a turn for the abnormal. I saw this video and have been in love with it since 10th grade. So enjoy please.

EAT THEM UP YUM!

Le Disko (New Music Video) - Shiny Toy Guns

I have liked this song since I first heard it. And I was impressed when I saw the video. Beware this was edited for tv so "loaded gun" is edited out, not sure why, but..............there you go.
Today was a cold day and it will only get colder with a possibility of freezing rain tonight, so I may not be going to work right away in the morning, or, if its bad enough they might cancel classes at my college. I almost hope they do, but its getting close enought to finals I also hope they dont.
My grandma is home from the hospital today, they arent sure what is wrong with her, but I'm still worried, she has been getting more and more confused lately, and her health has been declining. I guess it really isnt all that strange that she isnt doing well she is getting old and hasnt really been taking care of her health. But still both of her sisters have died fairly recently, both within 3 months of each other I think, that makes me think that her time may be coming. I love her and I hope no matter what happens she know that.

The Postal Service -

OK so you might think that this is a lame video, but i like it. Something about the simplicity of the video makes my eyes shine with tears. Plus the song is good too. This video is different than most because it doesnt have any performance shot or a real story that matches with the song.

Today has been a strange day. In my spanish class we found out that our final exam is going to be alot more difficult than we thought. It is oral, we knew that, but we wont know the topic until eight minutes before our partners go in. We know we will have one of three topics but that means we have to prepare for them all in a week and a half. YIKES!